lesson that needs to be learned here -
fuck patience. i'll continue to get frustrated and curse you in my mind until i get a little older and learn to accept people's differences. until then, i think i'm still at that age where i'm allowed to have shitty, useless and self damaging human traits.
i will probably never grow out of this. after all, judgement and impatience are the traits that the stars engraved in me so i'll just leave working on those things for my next life. the one i'm hoping i won't have.